okie i noe i need to start studying.but for some reason..i feel dead.why?simple. recently,i went to look up a friend,Gerald.I did mention him in the blog b4.somewhere between june-july.complained he was sensitive and stuff. Anw i went to look for him and said sorry. At first,he ignored me...so i talked 2 him and he showed attitude.wadever.i still ren.dan i told him "what ever i said i take it back." His reply?.. "Even if u take back the words,can u take back the pain?" omg.i was so stuck. "Forget it,its over" he said. So i went off saying a sorry and causing him lots of trouble.Ltr he asked me to msg him.so i did.i told him bout hw i felt and everything.in e end he 4gave me but chose to let our friendship go.I kept most of his sms-es. bout 50++ of them. The nxt day he msged me saying he wld b gg to aussie ard mid-dec.for some reason, i cired. reali hate goodbyes. At the same time,becoz of gerald i fan lian with another person to a point that we almost gave up. I dont understand wad guys are thinking. Friends or wadever.i cant even understand my own BROTHER. wadever it is i hate it. im always either hurting or end up getting hurt. Sucks. tis blog is dead already.im dead and everything ard me is D-E-A-D To JD: yes i was afraid to tell u,so i blocked u.i reali dont wanna do the skin.im reali veri sian. im sorry 4 nt tellin u.if these words hurt u,plz kill me. Thx. `elainez.*
